Letter to My Only Child
To my beloved child... I love you. I miss you so much. I am sorry I couldn't do more to bring you into this world. I'm sorry I couldn't help your mom work through her fear. And I am sorry she doesn't acknowledge you much. It breaks my heart so much. Know that you were conceived through a love and a passion your mother and I had for each other. Your mother and I had a short term temporary love for each other and even though that love is broken now... I will always love you. You will always be in my heart. I will never forget the lessons I learned because of your sacrifice, if only I would have learned them sooner. I can't wait to meet you in my next life, I long to hold you in my arms. I look back and I hope you could hear me or a least feel my voice as I talked to you against your mothers belly. Remember how I introduced myself to you... in a Darth Vader voice, I said, "I'm your father"... I told you how I was first to say, and now the only to say, "I love you!" When I found out you were conceived I ran over to your mother and placed my hand on her tummy to show my love and protection I desired for you. I am sorry I failed to protect your life. Not a day goes by that I don't feel so much regret for that. I will always remember the walk in the park with you, your mother, and I... it was so nice to all be together. I am sorry it was not an ideal situation but we were, for just one moment, a happy little family.
