True Story #14

Posted 10.01.2008

I was born in Orange Walk which is a town in my home country of Belize, Central America. A lot of people may not know where to find it on a map but that is understandable because of its size. I have spent all my life here and I am currently a student enrolled in a university. I met my ex-girlfriend at my high school Christmas dance and we had been together for four years. She found out she was pregnant on January 7, 2008. At first I was happy but then I was heart broken at the fact that she wanted to have an abortion. I tried my best to convince her not to. I told her I would support her and the baby, but she refused to listen and was intent on not having my child. I finally gave in to her demands because she told me she would hate me if I didn't do what she wanted. I was madly in love with this girl, so I stopped arguing and she went ahead and had the abortion. After that I felt different. I felt that a part of me was missing and every time I touched her, it was the pain of my baby I was feeling. We broke up only three days after the abortion because I could not stand to look her in the eyes or touch her. I know I still love her, but it's just too painful for me. I hate her for what she did, but not for who she is. I was always miserable, sad, angry, and depressed. I though "maybe if I would have talked to her a little more, I would be a father of a new born." That thought kept haunting me until I couldn't take it anymore and started to have serious thoughts of suicide. I still think everyday how different life would be, yet how painful it is not to have the child I should.

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