True Story #23

Posted 04.15.2009

Hello gentlemen. I realize that this is a site for men suffering the devastating effects of an abortion. I do appreciate the opportunity to share my story as I need to express my absolute heartache for the wonderful man who had to endure years of sadness due to my selfishness. I devastated this man with an abortion. I guess I'll start at the beginning. I knew this man all my life. Our moms were best friends and we spent summers together riding bikes and being kids. As adults we began dating. I was younger than him and was a party girl, always thinking of myself first. He was (is) a wonderful man. Kind, loving, loyal, hard working... I could go on. Just an absolute God send. Well, needless to say, I got pregnant. He was, of course, wonderful and so happy. I, in turn, was not. So I made the grave mistake of terminating. That was the worst mistake of my life. I didn't realize then what a mammoth mistake that was. Not only did I destroy this wonderful man, I destroyed his family (who I love and miss dearly), my family, and myself. It guts me inside to this day to know that I have caused so much heartache to so many, especially him. I have cried myself to sleep more times than I can count, and it's been over 13 years. It doesn't get easier for me knowing I made that choice. I'm 36 now and dream of how great our lives could have been. I pray to be forgiven by God and this man who I have loved all my life. I know he has married and I pray he is happy with his life. Please understand that not all of us women who chose the wrong path sleep easy at night, and to all that suffer, my prayers are with you. I just hope he knows I love him more than ever, even though we haven't spoken in years. If you ever read this, [name], I'm so sorry to hurt you so deeply. God bless.

Commentary

This is a first for this site - a woman sharing her pain, grief, and guilt over the choices she has made. It is important to understand that there are many women who come to regret the decisions they make, grieve for those they may have hurt, and suffer from terrible guilt and loss... even if they don't show it right away. That's why forgiveness is so important. When we learn to forgive those who have hurt us, even if they don't ask for it, it helps the healing process. And when and if the opportunity ever arises to express that forgiveness, it truly sets you free!

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